my 2020 vision


something about the dawn of a new decade is enticing me to jot down my new year's resolutions. i am not usually one to do this my resolutions tend to be loose and i don't often follow through with them but i am feeling like it's time. time for a change. time for a better me.


jet atkin, world-renowned celebrity hairstylist and CEO of ouai haircare, shared an image on her instagram of her resolutions on post-it notes. i thought, "how clever". i decided to steal her crafty approach and transform it into a blog post that will live forever on the internet. that means i have to follow through with my resolutions this time or i will be a liar and no one likes liars.


I WANT TO QUIT...

doubting myself. i am so guilty of this. i know full well that i pour my soul into everything i do. however, i still feel like i am never doing enough. it's weird and i am over it.


I WANT TO START...

expressing to my loved ones how appreciative i am of them. this one is hard to swallow because i treasure the people in my life immensely , but i know i don't show it enough. i don't know why i am so hesitant when it comes to showing emotion, but i am and it's something i will overcome in 2020.


I WANT TO LEARN...

patience. i am a certified rusher. when i want something, i want it immediately and will stop at nothing to make it happen. but, i think some things in life are meant to happen progressively and i want to be more understanding of that.


I WANT TO CONTINUE TO...

create. i feel like i am constantly coming up with new ideas and it brings me an explainable amount of joy bringing them to fruition. decorating our home, planning our wedding, and starting my blog were all creative projects that made me genuinely happy. i want to create more things that make me feel that way.


I WANT TO TRY...

more foods. although my food horizons have broadened over the years, i want to expand them even further. i want to blindly select a recipe from a cookbook, make it, and love it. maybe i will just start eating in the dark like in that one episode of the blacklist. i'll keep you updated on that.


I'M GOING TO STOP...

being negative. this one's hard to swallow too because i think i am really good at portraying myself as this positive ray of sunshine when in reality i harbor a lot of resentment. it's very heavy and i am ready to cut it all off.


I WANT TO HAVE...

peace within myself. it seems like i am always beating myself up over something, whether it be a choice i made, a grade i received on an exam, or something i said. i want to just trust that i am exactly where i am supposed to be, that i am doing what is best for me and that what i am going through has a divine purpose.


I WANT TO BE...

more adventurous. i've been a planner since the moment i popped out of the womb. it sucks sometimes because i feel like i have to follow this rigid schedule in order to be successful. i want to let loose and allow the waves of life to take me where i am destined to go.

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